Adore

I'm sitting down and trying to focus and medite about something like this one, what really do I adore in this time of my life? mmm being honest to myself,  I wish with all my heart that could be The Lord Jesus Christ, but how could it be possible if I forget doing the things that He did when He was on earth? How is it possible if I don't remember Him every single moment of my life?

Then, what can I do to really Adore him? How my soul can be hungry? 

This is a special time, Christmas time, and this means that is all about Him. That's why I ask you Sandra to forget those things that distract you and refocus in what really matters, the really Christmas' gift.

No problem, this is in my mind!!! But what do I need to do to have it in my heart also?

Please I need your help...

Prepare

I have to prepare some of my sons's homework for tomorrow but instead of it, I'm here writing and having some fun like all of you girls of FMF... I really enjoy this quiet time for myself . It's a time when I sit down and try to focus in the prompt  and let the words flow inside my head and heart and then my hands do their work.

 I'm not a good writer and my English is not as good as I want either but I hope I can transmit my words to you FMFParty. 

I just want to say tonight: Let's prepare ourself for this Season so we can feel the Savior's love in our homes and hearts. He is the only One who could helps us in everything. 

Dear

Dear and lovely sons:

I am grateful for this day, for the opportunity to have fun with both of you. Because we spent time toghether having a lot of fun. We sang toghether, we laughted, we played, we took pictures and we talked about many things. This is one of those days I want to remember all my life. 

Why is this day special for me? Because I get out of my routine and we did unexpected things... Most of all, I didn't yell to you. Was wonderful to enjoy my evening with you, my dear ones. 

Thank you dear Heavenly Father for this great blessing you shared with me today. 

Please dear Heavenly Father, let me have more days like this one, help me to enjoy my life and let me be a good example and a good mother to my kids. 

Give

I'm grateful for all blessings God gives me... And for all that He do for me.

In this day, a very special day for all of you (Americans) in which you celebrate Thanksgiving Day, I want to celebrate ether (here in Mexico is not a tradition to celebrate it) nevertheless  I want to celebrate it even if I don't cook a great meal but what really matters is to be together as a family and and give thank you to my God for all  our blessings.

Before I started to write, I was reading a post which talked about blessings and I discovered many small blessings  I sometimes  didn't  recognize as blessings. That's why I have to be thankful for. 

This are my small blessings I'm greatful for:

• Could hear my oldest son telling a story to my youngest son before they went to sleep.

• Having my youngest son in my lap waiting he  fell sleep

• Feeling my son heart's intentions before he went on a trip

• A sincerely hug

This great blessings give me so much happiness today.

Notice

I'm grateful for opening my eyes and specially my heart, because I could notice that I have to change my mind and my life. What am I talking about? It's all about to be a joyful person, a joyful mom and a joyful wife. Life is for having joy, isn't it? But, how can I be a joyful one? I'm trying to listen to my heart to know what I have to do to be happy, why? Because I know that you  could speak to my heart, and you always says the truth, you're the source of happiness, the way to reach it and the only one who can help me to be a happy person. Please don't forget me...

Care

What can I need to care about? Sotimes I stress myself about how I look like, how I talk, if the other persons though I'm a good mother... But I lerned that what I have to care about is what God thinks of me and if I am choosing the right. I don't have to care about what other persons think about me because I'm enough. 

By the other side, I have two little spirits to take care of. I need to be a good example  for them and nurish them while they are young. That's my responsibility before  God. Sometimes I feel like I have not the skills to teach them and raise them but I know that the Lord is at my side and He could help me in this great work.

New

Today is a New day!!! It's a new opportunity to live, enjoy, laugh, breath and specialy to try to be better than yesterday. 

I started this new day with a big surprise, I went downstairs in the morning and saw my oldest son, what was he doing? He was siting down in a chair and paintng at his new easel but also he was enjoying his new markers (were his yesterday's prize). I saw him very concentrated and fascinated. What a great moment and a good memory to me. 

Hold

I remember when was my fist time I did hold you in my arms... That time was when we were at the hospital, your time had arrived to come to this earth.

I'm  grateful to be your mom and thank you oh dear God for this great blessing and opportunity that thou have given me. 

I ask Thee dear God to hold me in thy arms because I need you more than ever, I need to feel thy love to me.

And please, let me know how to rear thy sons, help me to be a good example and to nourish them in thy way

Reach

I almost reach Thee!!! 

May I have your hand for a second? I feel safe at your side. Could you protect me? Could you be with me all the time? How can I be with you? Can I feel thy sapirit?

Please fill my  soul with joy and gratitude 

Tell

I'm going to tell you what we're my dreams and what is my story. 

My dreams:

Have a happy marriage ( without anger) where there were not disappointments with my husdban.

Have a perfect house, always clean, with great furniture and without messy.

Have kids who were always obedient to me, 

Be a great mom who never yell to her kids

My story

I'm marriage to a man who loves me so much, he's an imperfect one like me, we have our bad and good days, but he is my life and he strive to get the things going better. 

I'm a mom of two great sons, I love them so much and they too. They are my life also. They teach me many things every day, they make me happy and sad. Sometimes I cry for them, sometimes I yell to them, sometimes I'm not a good mother.

This is my story, I don't know how far I am for my dreams nevertheless I'm greatful for my real story, is not perfect but it gives me joy, happiness and sadness so I can enjoy the sweet moments. 

Each day is and will be a challenge to me to find joy in my journey

I tell you... And I need your help

Begin

There is something wonderful for all of us, we have the opportunity to Begin every day, to try to be better than the day before... Is our history that we are writing in some book, it can not be erased by us, unless we repent and confess all our wrong acts to Him,  He  who has the power to erase them. 

So here I am beginning  ones again, trying to be a better person, a better daughter, a better wife, a better sister, a better mom... But specialy to be Me!!!! And I'm enjoying my journey ...

Belong

Where do I belong?

 I'm a daughter of Heavenly Father with great potential.

I'm a daughter of my mortal parents which I love them so much.

I'm a sister and the little one.

I'm a wife, my husband is a son of Heavenly Father too.

I'm a mother of two handsome ones. 

I'm proud of all!!! 

I belong to my family and my dear ones. But specially I belong to my Heavenly Father and my Savior.

What else do I have to belong to?

The Messenger

I need I a Messenger to deliver some Message for 3 different person who aré very important to me

1. To my Dad: You who went away time go but I know that you will receive this words. I miss you and your grandchildren too, they who you didn't know here on earth but some day you'll do it. There is nothing to forgive, things happened just like there were but don't worry, you're my dad and you're my son's grandpa. 

2. To my husband. You who I choiced to spend my life with. You who are my son's  father I tell you that I love you with all my heart. You are part of my life and without you I'm lost. Thank you for loving me.

3. To my kids. You are my little ones, you change my entire life and give me the opportunity to be a mom. I don't be the best mother in the world but you both were choice to be my kids for a reason. I love you so much. 

You are the 4 men must important to me. You are part of my life and for you I'm here just where I'm today. Thank you for all I have learn from you and there's more to learn from you. 

With all my heart

San

Daughter, wife and mom

Hands

Here at home we are His Hands, don't we? And the a answer is Yes!!! But why? Because He is not here, and we have our duty (to serve and to love like He did time ago). What does He do in every moment? That question is one of the most import one that we always have in mind and of course, in our Heart.