Doubt

There is no doubt in my heart that God knows the time for everything. Some times we, as his sons and daughters, are impatient for getting blessings at our own time because we need them. 

What could happen if those blessings came at our own time? Someone could imagine it? I think that maybe we couldn't appreciate them suffienthly, and even more, those blessings couldn't bless ourselves and our life as much as they could be. 

I'm so grateful for receiving blessings from God every day of my life and because they strengthen my heart and my soul, but I'm more grateful for can recognize them when they come to my life at God's time

Meet

I'm trying to meet myself. I want to know what are my purpose and my passions. So that's the reason I enrolled in a 3 weeks challenge. And the fist step is to set my intention for this experience, I have to write it down and here I go. After an inner quiet time I found my intention "to reconnect with myself and  find what my purpose and my passions really are".

But I can not doing this by myself, I need God's help. Why? Because He is the only one that knows who really I am and what my potential is.  Please dear God be at my side, open my heart and let me find and know what you what me to do and what are those things that will fill me completely and will help me experience really happiness as you feel it.

Hide

I want to hide me from everyone right now!!! And wait until this feeling get away... It's one of those moments when my mind is really confused, there is pain in my heart but also discomfort with myself. It's hard for me to just let it go of this feeling that is hurting me... Some times I think that I like it, so that's the reason I don't like to let it go of... Is this true? I don't know. What I know, is that I'm upset with everything right now, with everyone, but why? Today I nurished myself early in the morning, I was feeling me great... But all changed in the afternoon, I was not patient with my little child at his swimming class just because he didn't want to do what the teacher said. And then, with my oldest child because he told me that he would want his father take him at school and no me.. And more and more disconfort came to me.. 

Break

Today was the last day of school for my oldest son. He has a break and it will last 2 weeks.

While he was saying good bye to his teachers at school, one of them told him "enjoy your break"...  And this will be my intention, let the kids enjoy this time and also let me enjoy it too.

I don't have a plan to go out home, but we will visit our surrounding areas, we're going to make some crafts and arts (because they like them), there will be connecting and reading time and we're going to play a lot.

And of course, there will be many photography sessions!!! I will try to improve my photography skills.

But, what can I do to accomplish this plans? Yes, I want to make them real and not only that remain as wishes.

I love my kids but some times is hard for me to control my emotions and be patient with them... It will be a big challenge to me.

I know that God can help me and He will be at my side during this and in all times

Plan

I had a plan for today, but is raining out side and now it has to be changed... I don't want to worry or stress myself for the changes, rather I will be spontaneous and Savor this Saturday time with my kiddos. Right now we are sitting warmly on my bed, kids are watching TV while I'm spending 5 minutes in writing this words. 

What are we going to do after this? I don't  know, because I don't have a plan B but we can be inspired about what to do.

And but the other side, God's plan never change, it will be the same everyday. 

I'm so grateful for God's plan, because today I can enjoy my life here on earth with my loved ones, with the gospel in my life knowing that some day I can return to the presence of Him who has given me life.

Visit

Last Friday morning I was visited by two women, and they brought me a great message, it was about Jesus Christ. Oh! It was an inexpected one, but they made my day.

We talked about that wonderful man, brother, son and a closed friend if only we open our hearts, ears and eyes. 

He can visit us every single day and He is at our side in every moment

I'm so grateful for His great example, for being here for me at every moment, for letting me rest upon Him.

I have to admit that right now, I'm not so closed to Him, but I'm on my way!!! I'm also stretching my relationship with my Father in Heaven; every day, I bow my head in pray towards Him and this has helped me to be near to they and can be nourish   by them. It is a wonderful feeling I can't describe.

Open

My heart and my eyes are opened to see all the beauty around me. Thank you dear Havenly Father for this great opportunity, thank thee because you open them every single day of my life. 

Recently you helped me to recognize how blessed I am, how wonderful is my life with all that you have given me (it is not supposed that I can have everything),  and most of all, I have learned that you have given me enough, and that's sufficient to be happy. 

Please, Heavenly Father, help me open  my heart everyday so it can be filled with thy love and can share this love with myself and my fellow beings. Please, let me open my eyes so I can savor every single moment I am with my dear ones and with all your sons and daughters.

When

During all this week I have been learning about the things I need to let go of my life. 

And today, not for casuallity, when it was reading time for me, I found these words: "faith gives us vision of what may happen, hope for the future and optimism in our present tasks".

Then I think to my self, Sandra this is what you need!!!

And suddenly, when I was ponder about it, another thought brought to my mind: "Pray as if everything depends on Him, work hard as if everything depends on you"

Wow, what a beautiful morning I had today!!! 

There is not doubt, that I can talk with God, and He answers me...

I'm so grateful for this lovely experience, but most of all, that I'm not alone in this world.

Keep

 

In the afternoon I was writing a letter to my oldest son, I was describing him about the plans we did for his party. And while I was typing the words on my computer about that moment, I felt like I was living it again. 

For me, it's hard to remember everything. That's why I decided to challenge my self to write monthly letters to my kids. This is one my ways to keep my memories. 

What marvelous is to keep memories, isn't it? 

I love taking pictures every time I have the opportunity, and this is my other way for keeping memories.

I'm not a good photographer but I'm learning and I hope one day I can take really good pictures.

Also, there is an other way I used to practice to keep memories, I'm talking about my gratitude journal. It helps me to keep me alive all day long, because I walk with open eyes all day long, and I'm trying to feel every moment my life has. This, give me the opportunity to at the end of my day, can bow my head in pray and give thanks to God for all those, big and small, blessings I received from Him, through all  the day.

Wait

I have waiting so much for many many things. Is it OK? It's not ok, I think. 

Sometimes I prefer to wait for the correct moment to say or do something... But suddenly something not desired happens and then the  result is not what I wanted.

Before, I used to notice all I don't have and I dreamed about how my life was if I could have them. But NOW, I'm taking another way, I'm talking about gratitude practice.. If only I focus my attention  in my everyday blessings and more specially, if I could notice what I have, I could realize that I'm very rich, because  God always has given me what I need. Every single day of my life I have been blessed so much.

I don't have to wait any more for things I would like to have... Blessing will come and the only who know when, how and if it's possible is God.

Thank Thee Heavenly Fathe for my life, my family, my siblings, my friends, my health... Please, help me to enjoy my life as it is. 

Share

When I was a little bit younger, I chose a man to share my dreams with. Now that I'm marriage, I could say that I chose again, a man to share my dreams with, a man to be with him for the rest of my life and for all eternity, a man who I can walk by his  side and to try toghether to accomplish our dreams.

And today I want to share with all of you my dreams.

Some day  I dreamed to get marriaged to a man who trusts in The Lord; to have a family, sons and daughters; to be a good mom, that one that can be present for her childrens in every moment, that one that could teach her children about The Lord and the gospel, that one that don't yell to his children... I dreamed to love my husband every single day of my life and continue increase my love for him...

These are not only dreams, some are accomplished, but some aren't yet...

Please Lord, give me strength to accomplish them but only if is your will... Help me to don't forget them and never give up.. 

Send

This is a letter I don't going to send because is one for myself... Go

Dear Sandra

I have some words to write you and you need to read them. But first, let me telI you that I never have done something like this and I hope this could be really good for both of us.

You are a daughter of Havently Father, and you have the potential of do what ever you want (good things) just trust in Him, ask for help and do your best...

Please don't forget the most important in  this world, which is God, remember that He is near to you, waiting for you to nock the door and He will open it...  Don't forget to pray every day of your life and always be greatful for those blessings that you receive.

You are a mother of two handsome kids and you need to be a good example for them. Remember that there is no perfect mother, but be kind, loving, peaceful and try to do the best you can. Don't forget to teach them about God, they should believe in Him for they well-being.

Also, be a good companion for your husband, remember that you decided to marry him for this life and for eternity... Do your best and love him every day of your life, give him hugs and kisses as much as you can.

This is for you, a letter never send but surely, it will be read

With love

Sandra

Stop

Welcome

I have two handsome sons that are welcomed to my life... They are everything to me... They give me happy and sad moments that I keep deepth in my heart. Some days ago, and for some reason they went to bed toghether and without me, and time later I went uptairs to saw them, because I didn't hear noise there, and for my surprise they fell slept toghether in the same bed, the oldest holding his youngest brother in his arms... I have to confess, that it makes me cry, saw them, but more specially  because they love each other... This is my moment and is welcome to come back again and again to fill my heart with joy.